Mass Effect 3: A Response

I know, I know, I’m really behind. Needless to say, my tardiness in playing this series did not hinder my intense reaction that is very similar to the initial onslaught the game caused after it first came out and the world started playing it; and, upon ending it, quickly erupted into cries of anger and tears of disbelief. Disclaimer: Spoilers abound, so don’t read if you don’t want spoilers pertaining to the entire Shepard trilogy. 

First, I think I must make clear why I reacted in such an intense way, before I go about spoiling the ending for the few souls that still haven’t gotten around to playing this like I had. There are two main reasons: One is what I call the “Curse of the Creative” (which I actually wrote an entire blog about ages ago, which you can read here). I’m a writer by birth and a storyteller by trade (despite the unpublished status). So growing up, I loved to read, because reading gave me a chance to escape reality. And I escaped reality because I got so into the book I was reading and that world. So into it that, in fact, I unconsciously place myself within the story, whether as a bystander or one of the characters themselves, so that everything that happens within the story hits at a much more personal level, as if it were happening in reality.

I think that sort of intensity by which I read is a result of the constant creation I’m doing in my head to help prepare for when I write. So when I started playing video games a couple of years ago (and gotten a bit more serious since then — and by serious, all I mean is that I let it consume a lot more of my free-time than it used to…so, maybe loyal is a better word?), I think it comes to no surprise that I get really into video games, because I am actually playing a character that interacts with other characters (even in single player mode) based on my own choices. So whenever I got a great kill-streak, I felt like a badass for the rest of the day in RL (real life; look at me, using gamer abbreviations). Or when I formed a friendship with a follower, like in Skyrim, my loyalty was to the point that if my housecarl, Lydia, was killed, I’d load a game and restart, even if it meant losing hours of progress, to make sure I saved her. Because she was a friend. I wasn’t going to let a friend just die. Likewise, I get super into the romances (thinking both Dragon Age and Mass Effect here), especially since my love life doesn’t exist in RL, so I’d be damned if I’m going to mess it up in the video game world, as well. So, to put it bluntly, I get really invested, I think is the right word, within the character I create or play, to a personal level.

Weird? Probably. Gonna change? Definitely not.

Secondly, the reason why my investment increased for Mass Effect is because of what BioWare did right: creating such a beautifully intricate world where my choices actually carry heavy weight and the characters carry with me from game to game. Pair my already intense emotional investment that I put into playing video games with characters who I have played with since game one, and of course I am going to be super invested in these characters by game three.

Now, I’m not saying BioWare did anything wrong with the ending of Mass Effect 3 (this is where the spoilers start. I can’t warn you any more). Honestly, I kinda expected that Shepard wasn’t going to make it. I mean, c’mon, look at everything she has accomplished from all of the games. It’s hard to expect that a single person can defeat Saren, join forces with Cerberus, stop the Collectors, betray Cerberus (thank God), unite the entire galaxy — including, but not limited to curing the genophage and ending the war between the Turians and the Geth — defeat Cerberus and stop the Reapers, and live to tell the tale through all of it. I can understand that, so when Shepard died, I was pissed, but I understood. It was hard to watch, but I got it.

No, what I am shaking my fist about and what I wanted was the outcomes of my followers. BioWare, if you were unaware, is also the creator of my all-time favorite game, Dragon Age. One of my favorite aspects about DA is that, at the end of each game, I learn the future of not only my own character, based on the choices I made, but also what happens to the other characters (Note: in DA, even though you play within the same world and some characters float between each game, the character you play as changes for each installment ((there are three)), in juxtaposition to Mass Effect, where you play as Shepard through all three games).

I wanted exactly that for Mass Effect 3. For my ending, after the Normandy crashes, Joker, Kaidan and James walk out of it alive. Yet Kaidan and James were with me when we ran to the beam and, based on the radio intel, I thought they were killed (and am very happy they were not). But what about the rest of my crew? I mean, Garrus, Liara and Tali have been with me since game one, so I’m really invested in them. And I can’t get enough of my Krogans, so I really need to know what happened to Wrex and Grunt, at leastEspecially since the upcoming game for Bioware, Mass Effect: Andromeda starts off a whole new adventure well into the future. While I recognize there is a great chance that none of the characters previously will still be alive for this new game (as they have made clear that Andromeda is an entirely new game with a new plot line), some aliens have really long live spans. I know Liara does, in particular. So the chance that she could appear in Andromeda remains.

Except I have no idea about that possibility, because I don’t know who is alive and who is dead.

That’s all I wanted. You wanna kill off Shepard, leaving me in what I described to my friend as an “emotional hangover” for the next 24 hours, literally haunting my dreams after I watched her die at one in the morning last night? Fine. I’ll mourn the death of the most badass female character I have ever known, but I will support that death, if it means I saved the galaxy from the Reapers (for those who have played the game, I choose to control them, btw). But you cannot build up such an amazing world and such complex characters, getting me so invested that I consider them borderline real friends, and then not tell me what happened to them. This is almost worse than when I tried so, so hard to keep my entire team alive in Mass Effect 2, during the suicide mission, and then managed to do so, only for you (you being Bioware) to kill off half of them in game three (yep, literally cried during both Thane’s and Mordin’s deaths. Thanks for that).

So, long story short, I have been in emotional pain for the past 24 hours because I have no idea if my sacrifice, as Shepard, was worth it. I have no idea what happened to my team, my planet or my galaxy. And I’m not talking about just after the battle. I’m talking about — if we’re moving on to a new time period and characters in Andromeda — the rest of their lives. Did Garrus and Tali stay together? Do the Krogan ever revolt again or does Wrex manage to keep them in check? Does Kaidan ever find love again (since, ya know, I died on him…twice. Geez)? How does James do with N7? How does the peace end (because it always ends)? Do EDI and Joker make it? What about all the other characters I’m not mentioning since this post is already too long? I’m just left with so many questions that I cannot answer.

Now, I will admit, through quick research done last night, I do realize BioWare released an extended cut for Mass Effect 3. Obviously, I didn’t play the version with an extended cut. And maybe this cut answers all of my questions, I don’t know. I’m just saying, the entire point of this post, was to describe how I reacted and why I responded that way. I recognize that all of these answers could be provided, now, and my complaints are null and void. Except that they aren’t null and void. This is simply a call to any video game studio out there, in any game that you make in the future: you can rip out my soul and crush my heart in terms of the twists and endings of your games, but please, for everything that is holy, give me closure. Because nothing is worse than not having closure, especially after the studio already did such an amazing job creating a game and a world that is such a joy to play.

Regardless, I’m too hooked into this world to let the lack of closure stop me from continuing to support it. I’m eagerly awaiting Andromeda like the rest of the greater public has been, even if I’m a little late. BioWare is my top gaming studio and will always have my loyalty and support. And now, I’m about to continue to show my n00b status in the gaming world by letting you know that the next series of games I’m about to start (finally) are the Assassin’s Creed games. I’m interested to see if they are as much of an emotional roller-coaster as Mass Effect was. All I’m saying is, closure is a really, really good thing. Mass Effect was awesome, including the heart-wrenching-emotional-turmoil-roller-coaster ride that comes with it. And endings are hard too, even with blogs. So lets finally finish this, shall we?

Cheers,

Commander Shep–er…Nicole

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About Nicole Evans

Nicole Evans is a writer of fantasy and science fiction. She is currently unpublished and is working fervently to get the “un” removed from that statement. She has five completed manuscripts: a trilogy about destined heroes that fail anyway, a science fiction standalone that pits the natural desire to love against the natural instinct to kill during the extinction of the human race and a new series about a writer who can't get published and gets the chance to live a life that all writers dream. She also has two scripts done. Currently, she is about to start writing the second of a nine book series while planning two more. (If you can tell, she really likes this whole writing thing.) Considering she has run out of space for putting rejections letters up on her wall, Nicole now uses her spare time doing the typical things that nerds do: blogging, dying repeatedly during video games (which she believes is retribution for the characters’ she’s killed), wishing she was the character she is currently reading about and trying to fight off the real world by living in her own head, with varying degrees of success. Nicole has a degree in Creative Writing and a minor in Film and Media Studies, and works part-time as a supervisor in a library at the University of Kansas. View all posts by Nicole Evans

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