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Being Okay With Lazy

The past two days, I’ve been a bit…lazy. Instinctively, I felt like I needed to beat myself up about it. My To-Do List wasn’t getting any shorter and there was so much time that I was wasting, especially after having such a productive Monday. But I’m writing this post to remind myself that this is okay.

Here’s what an ideal day is like, for me, in the summer:

Wake up at 9am. Either run or go to the gym. Stretch. Lay out by the pool for an hour and hopefully read for a bit. Shower. Make lunch (and dinner, since I work through dinner time and need to prep it beforehand). If I have enough time before work, sneak in some PS4 time. Then, go to work, where I’m lucky enough to also have time to write, blog, do things for my internship and various other stuff from the To-Do List, on top of daily work stuff. Come home, maybe sneak in some more PS4 time or an episode on Netflix before going to sleep. Smile, rinse, repeat.

Here’s what the past two days have looked like:

Tuesday, I work up to my alarm at 9am. Snoozed it. Woke up at 9:30am, felt good, still had time to run and swim and eat and relax before work. But I really just wanted to stay curled up in bed. So I did, dozing on and off (with bloody weird dreams) until about noon. Then, I played Shadows of Mordor until it was time for work, frantically getting ready because I just wanted to kill a few more orcs before I left.

Today, I got up at 9:30am but instead of going to the gym or swimming like I planned, I went straight back into Mordor and slayed, once again pushing it to the brink, time wise, rushing to shower, dress and grab some stuff for dinner all in thirty minutes.

That’s two days where I didn’t work out at all but had plenty of time to. Didn’t swim or tan (and I’ll be honest and admit I’m really digging working on a tan), even though the weather was totally perfect for it. I didn’t use some of my free time to actually accomplish some things so that there wasn’t so much pressure crammed into my evenings. Instead, I just relaxed and got way too invested into Shadows of Mordor, which I’m replaying (and will hopefully actually beat this time) before Shadows of War comes out in the fall.

I keep telling myself I should feel guilty, that I wasted all this time. Except I shouldn’t. And I didn’t.

Sure, if every day could be as productive as my Monday was, I’d be pretty jazzed. I’m obviously very capable at being productive. I’d also get burnt out, really fast. Plus, is all that productivity suddenly ruined because I consciously decided to let myself just be lazy for a few days and enjoy one of my favorite passions? Especially knowing that, once I go full-time next week at work, that free time with the PS4 will be much more limited? Am I abandoning my goals because I chose to be lazy instead of pursuing them?

Not at all.

I’m choosing to believe that being lazy for a bit is okay.

Granted, if I started to give up all my goals for weeks on end, then we might have an actual problem to address. It’s a fine balance, staying productive and chasing dreams and goals, while also letting yourself unwind and relax. If I was choosing to not pursue my goals because I was in a massive depressed rut, that is also something else entirely. But I’ve been generally pretty okay the past couple days, emotionally, and instead of forcing myself to work out or swim or be hella productive, I’ve just let myself give into some orc-slaying pleasures and be lazy. I have a feeling I might even let that laziness continue into tomorrow, before I drive into a busy weekend. And next week, I can get back on track with routine and knocking my goals out of the park. Because a little indulgence, every once in a while, it’s okay.

It honestly is.

Plus, those orcs aren’t going to slay themselves. (Maybe each other, sure, but Talion and I have work to do.)

Cheers.


Quest for Happiness: Week Eleven (Plus, The Importance of Rest)

If you’ve been following this series of resolutions posts that occur every Sunday, you might realize that the last post was for Week Nine yet this week is Week Eleven. You might have also noticed that no post went up last week for Week Ten.

At first, a break in routine simply caused me to actually forget to write said post. I usually write these posts after I get caught up at work on Sunday evenings, but last week, since it was Spring Break, I didn’t have to work Sunday, so I spent time at home instead. It wasn’t until Monday that I thought offhandedly about which goal I wanted to focus on when I realized I hadn’t made any for that week and forgot to post. My plan was to write something and post it later that day, but obviously that didn’t happen. It wasn’t until Tuesday that I actually decided to not only not post anything, but also to take the entire week off.

So, Week Ten was a rest week.

I didn’t work out once. Didn’t write. Didn’t read. I spent a little too much money. I didn’t blog. I literally did nothing in any of the areas that are so important to my life; areas that I want to improve in. So what on Earth did I do?

I played video games. Mass Effect: Andromeda, to be exact. It came out last Tuesday, technically, though two friends and I went to Monday’s launch party. And since my schedule was different last week due to Spring Break, my evenings were free. Most of them, I played Andromeda for hours (yet not long enough, as the itch is strong and I just want to go back and play). Thursday, I went home and watched basketball with my family. Friday, I went to a friend’s house and spent the night, playing video games with her and her fiancé. Saturday, I went to a one day writing conference (which I’ll hopefully blog about later this week!) before helping with my brother’s birthday party and watching my team get knocked out of the Big Dance. And then I went to another friend’s house and spent the night before we got up this morning and met a friend to go shopping before work today.

Yeah, I was probably busier in the last week than I have been in while. Part of me is exhausted. Yet another part of me feels fantastic. I haven’t taken that much time for myself in…hell, a while. I haven’t unabashedly played video games in weeks. I didn’t feel guilty about choosing to take a nap instead of rushing from one goal to the next. I choose socialization over routine.

And I think that’s important.

Yes, I still desire to achieve my goals. And yes, I’m actually quite excited to get back on track this week and rededicate myself to getting things done. But I can’t work myself into the ground. I can’t be afraid to mess up every once in a while. I’m allowed to take a step back and just…relax, actually.

Honestly, I think I need to do a better job of incorporating relaxation into my goals. A friend of mine actually reached out a few weeks ago and asked me why relaxation wasn’t already a part of my plan. He pointed out: “you only have goals about productivity not about leisure.” It kind of blew my mind. Part of me wanted to resist trying to “add in” something else. How am I supposed to work in relaxation as well? I’m already overworked as it is! Yet I quickly realized that was why it was so important to add in relaxation and focus on it as much as I focus on all of my productive goals. I am overworked. I am feeling the hints and edges of burn out. And without actively working towards relaxing and taking time to take care of myself every week, I will burn out–which is more detrimental than any missed gym session or single failed writing attempt.

So, below are the goals for this week, with a new category added in. I’m excited to get back to it and continue working on finding balance, bettering myself and working towards creating–and choosing–my own happiness every single day.

Fitness:

  • Long-term Goal: Shape the body I want and become healthier.
  • This Week’s Goal: Run twice and lift twice.

Writing:

  • Long-term Goal: Edit three books, write four new books and query at least one.
  • This Week’s Goal: Research for edits. Edit short story.

Reading:

  • Long-term Goal: Read 60 books.
  • This Week’s Goal: Read every day.

Relaxation:

  • Long-term Goal: Create and maintain a mindset that taking care of yourself is just as important as everything else.
  • This Week’s Goal: Beat Eos in Andromeda.

Blogging:

  • Long-term Goal: Increase output over all three blogs, i.e., post more consistently.
  •  This Week’s Goal: Write three times on the personal blog.

Financial:

  • Long-term Goal: Manage money with more awareness, start retirement fund and build savings.
  • This Week’s Goal: Adjust budget based on spending habits.

Thanks, as always, for your support and your belief in me, friends. If I can ever support you and your goals in any fashion, please don’t hesitate to reach out! ❤

Cheers.